another sleepless night...

His sis came over for a chat last night... after she left, he spent the whole night surfing the net till this morning, I don't know what he's thinking, but he kept reminding me he's ok, I know he isn't. I'm pretty bothered! I wanted to tell them, his perspective in life is different from yours, that doesn't mean he's wrong, he's just not you! Yeah well, the only thing he did wrong was shouting at his dad and banging the phone on the coffee table in front of them. He's a simple guy, can you guys just let him be, do not force him to think the way you think and thought he's wrong because he's not like you! Why should he has the same thinking like you? I wanted to tell them all these, but I'm in no position to do so. I do not want to complicate the situation anymore. If they think we did not handle the wedding muture enough or up to their standard, they should have told us earlier, not blaming this and that after the wedding. How can they do this to him?

I sent an apology sms to his dad, and he replied "What happen has happened. I hope in future both of you pay more attention to whats happening around you and to be more caring and thoughtful in order not to hurt other peoples feelings and respect elders... no hard feelings afterall we are a family. Take care." After reading this, I feel the urge to ask them, what did we do by not being caring and thoughtful enough? Whatever decision we made, we always ask their opinion first, I did not even ask my parents, and how did they feel that we do not respect them? I feel so sad for Alan, noone in his family tried to understand or care about his feelings, even if he's so wrong, can someone at least talk to him and really try to understand him? Noone cares, the only thing they care is he shouted at his dad and he's wrong, nothing else is important. I did not show him the sms, cos I know he'll feel even worst after seeing it. I don't wanna take this so seriously but after seeing Alan being so upset, I couldn't take it anymore!

Afterall life isn't treatng him too badly, at least he has me!

the downturn...

I couldn't believe what had happened to me is happening to me right now. I thought the time and efforts we spent, we'll at least get some credit from my in-laws... sigh. Alan is still pretty upset about all these, I know I'm in no place to do anything except to be there for him whenever he needs me. I can foresee a tough and rockie road ahead of us, especially Chinese New Year is getting closer... shit... but I will stay strong knowing that Alan is always here! Thank god its him!